When I hear the word “love” it always gives me this unfathomable feeling of happiness and sadness at the same time. All the happiest and most painful memories I once had and experienced with my first love flashes back into my mind. I was again able to hear the laughs we had shared whenever when we’re together. Our exchanging of “Good morning” and “Good night” messages each and every day. The rules that we have to break just to meet and the support we give to inspire each other. Though, we all know that every beginning has its own ending. And in just a snap, all those dreams turned into nightmares. Through those, I’ve come to realize that love was not just as easy as standing up when you tripped in a pebble. It was not always as calming and relaxing when you hear the birds sing, and it was not just as beautiful as those blooming flowers in the garden. Love is a mixture of excitement, joy, holdbacks, and regrets. It was never as easy as anyone, even I, thought it would be. As the saying goes, everything comes when you least expect it, as well as love. Love comes by surprise, you never know when and where will it happen, and to which person you will experience it. Just like what happened to me, to us. I never thought that an acquaintance, who I thought would just like to be friends with me, will take the courage to court me. And I know that entering into a relationship as early as second year high school will not last long, and I was right. But still, I was not able to do anything to stop what I felt for him, because just like what the majority says, you can never stop your heart when it starts beating for someone. During the first few months of courting, he already let me feel like I was the most important girl for him, and how he was deeply, madly, and crazily in love with me. I’ve got all his attention that whenever I was not able to reply to his messages, he already gets paranoid. He cares for me a lot that he alw