Lacking severe self-confidence is the biggest barrier I have to face for many years. I think it is because among the three children in my family, I am the oldest to my younger sister and brother, my mom is always strict on me. If I did something wrong, even if it is the slightest thing, she will scold me hard, telling me not to do this and not to do that. Like I remember one time, I got a C- on math quiz. The moment my mom saw the red numbers on the test sheet, her eyes turned red. She would head to the shoes cabinet or kitchen and walk towards me with a thick stick or pipe, and she would start yelling at me and hit me, after hitting the red marks would “climb’’ across and over my arms and legs. My parents think that it is a must that I do things right, so they seldom and almost never encourage or eulogize me when I did a good job on my projects or even getting straight As on exams or midterms. The hitting and scolding made me feel that I could not do anything right, and I can never satisfied my parents a little bit only to get a tiny compliment for them. I think one of the reason that I am short of not having a persevering heart to do things is because I think that I can not do things right. Due to not getting people’s compliments often, so even when I did things right, it does not seem right to me, I always feel there are still things I could better or maybe there are some things needed to fix. The classic example of lacking a persevering heart when facing challenges of me is to lose weight. Because I am a premature birth child, neither can I be too overweight or underweight, it is bad for my physical conditions. I have lost 10 kilos so far, but due to the pressure of schoolwork and the pressure I have to face at home, I tend to eat much more to release them, when eating it would make me feel better. And so now I gained 10 plus 1 kilo back. My mom always say the biggest reason that I can not be as slim as I was used to is b