On March 10th, 2012, my life changed forever. This was and continues to be the worst day of my life. If you've ever lost someone you loved, you will know that this pain is indescribable. For me, losing my brother almost three years ago still saddens me. Maybe it always will, maybe I will never get over losing someone so special. In life, things happen to the people you love and care about beyond our own understandings, but the truth is I haven't gotten closure, we literally lost an angel. Losing someone is hard to accept, remembering him is easy, I do it every day. But missing him is the heartache that will never go away. Quite honestly I'm not sure how I've made it this far in life without my brother here with me. Only God knows how much I miss him and would do anything to have him back here with me. My brother, Scott, was twenty years old when he overdosed. He was my big brother, my best friend and my right hand, and then he found pills, and I was no longer number one in his life. As a kid we did everything together, I wanted to be just like him. If I was sad, he was the shoulder I was crying on. If a boy broke my heart, he would ask “where is he?” Whenever things got too tough for me to handle, he’d handle it for me. We went through everything together. He was always there to push me little harder, to laugh with me, and shut me up when my big mouth would get me in trouble. I had no memory of a life without him. I couldn't have asked for a better relationship with a sibling, and I’m saddened by those who take for granted that special bond. It all started because our parents lost us to the system and we were placed in foster care. We bounced from home to home. We slowly began to stay in and out of trouble. Living in foster care was the furthest thing from easy, it was hard to cope meeting a new family and living with strangers every month or so. Imagine feeling not wanted, alone, and scared. After losing me to jail time, he completely lost it. He couldn’t take it anymore. For him, he would never get over that pain. Eventually he went down a rocky road where he was introduced to a friend that would always